Infintie Love Songs

Fuck的店是一顆巨無霸的健達出奇蛋。

上個月回去，那種三百個願望一次滿足的感覺還是很熟悉，像我這樣太貪心的傢伙，卻也在一整牆的CD裡學會滿足。Infintie Love Songs是Fuck替我買的第一張CD，那年我18歲。

18歲聽起來簡直是一個過分搧情的開頭，彷彿接下來我們就會刻骨銘心的相愛。可惜不是每個18歲都是拿來談情說愛的，一個人喝醉你也許要擔心酒後亂性，若是兩個人都如此，那就只剩下因宿醉而導致的全身痠痛了。

其實我要說的是Maximilian Hecekr，不是什麼愛情故事也不是什麼宿醉。

又其實一開始我非常討厭Maximilian Hecekr，更討厭他那個什麼冰山處子的封號雖然我知道這不是他自己取的。所以當上個月我在Fuck的店裡聽到Cold Wind Blowing時，嚇了一跳。

"這誰的歌 太屌了"
"你的那張Infintie Love Songs到現在都沒拆過?"
"那是什麼?"

然後，他也嚇了一跳。

回家後，我翻箱倒櫃的找出了那張幾乎不存在我記憶裡的CD，反覆的聽了一整個晚上。然後我開始發現我再也無法討厭Maximilian Hecker，就連封面上那件白色的三角褲，也不知不覺的可愛了起來。

不得不承認喜歡與不喜歡都是那種毫無道理的以偏蓋全

不知道Maximilian Hecker會不會也嚇一跳呢?

• 01. Polyester
  • Touching flowers with your scream
    Meeting sweets
    She smiles like cream
    When your hair hides melting grace
    Worn out minds won't touch your face
    I am leaning far, too far above the ice
    So I'll feed my hands with cheeks of other names
    I am lying under tons of porcine snow
    Polyester absorbs me
    Fawn
    At last my parents cried
    About my green and my last white
    Now my darling goes to him
    She will dare her cross's skin
    I'm using gloves
• 02. Sunburnt Days
  • Show me your coat and I'll resist
    For all the girls that I have kissed
    They owned and stood there for a day
    Sang grateful songs and slipped away
    Blazing suns
    No disgrace
    My shirt is blue
    I love your face
    Hide your cheek with dirt
    Come and wear my shirt
    Sunburnt days
    I feel the gales that from ye blow
    A momentary bliss bestow
    As waving fresh their gladsome wing
    You breathe a second fancy spring
    One year ago I dried your eyes
    No sounds, alas! these were no lies
    Gay hope is theirs by fancy fed
    The tear forgot as soon as shed
• 03. Green Night
  • I came up to see you in the garden
    When you taught all the birds to sing
    In the time of dancing lights I was an eagle
    And you were so close to me
    I feel my heart is breaking
    I think I lose my head
    I'm singing all the love songs
    And never go to bed
    I'm walking in the sunshine
    I'm walking in the rain
    I don't care about nothing
    And I will get insane
    So I'm leaving
    I am breathing
    I have nothing to lose
• 04. The Days Are Long And Filled With Pain
  • The days are long and filled with pain
    We'll throw our lives away again
    I've never seen in my whole life
    My worst friend's sugar baby wife
    Now my life is gone
    Won't you try to hold me tight?
    'Cause you'll be me and I'll be out
    What will I find inside my head?
    The sun is gone
    But there's still light down inside my mind
    There's still a lot for us to see in this life
    Today you slipped into my head
    I'm waiting for you inside my bed
    There ain't no sense in feeling low
    I need more when you ever have to go
    Some might say that I walked through that door
    All my dreams are made of stupid whores
    Some might say that I fell from the sky
    But I have got a pillow in my eye
• 05. White
  • I can't cry when it hurts me so
    There's no light in my eyes
    I can't leave when you take those pictures
    Of me with my pale and sad face
    Oh when will the light fill my eyes
    Will your hands touch my cheek
    And everything is white?
• 06. Cold Wind Blowing
  • Cold wind blowing
    Cold ice snowing
    Light blue longing
    My heart stops running
    There's no place to hide
• 07. Over
  • My life is flowing anyway
    My dreams are flowing anyway
    And all the things that I have said
    And all the fears inside my head
    My girl, don't leave
    I've got the sun in me
    And you will love me anyway
    And you will leave me anyway
    Those cut down pieces on my way
    Those dark blue skies turned into grey
    My life is ending anyway
    Now that I'm dreaming of the day
    When I felt you, your being sad
    You could not leave my dirty head
• 08. Flower Four
  • All that grief in my teeth
    And all this running for love
    No, I can't stand anymore
    That your sweet eyes don't watch me
    And I believe in no gods
    But what leads me to you?
    And so I'll start to love your face
    And in the end I will love you
    So I'll play just this song
    And maybe I've been wrong
    So I'll play just this song
    But what if you are gone?
    So take me home
• 09. Like Them
  • The thoughts are leaving me today
    My head is leaving me today
    The sun in bloom, it breaks my eyes
    Around my smile just blackened lies
    I don't know why I can't cry
    I don't know why I can't feel
    Like them
    Their hands are reaching out for me
    But I don't care. I let them be
    Just like they are, just like they fall
    I've got no wisdom. I'm so small
• 10. Infinite Love Song
  • I walk around alone inside
    I walk around alone at night
    Breathing your light
    Holding you tight
    Rain on my way
    Rain made my day
    I can feel you
    I can see you
    I can love you
    I can leave you
    Where are the days when I was young?
    Now I've got to face reality
    I've got to face the pain
• 11. Let me out
  • I cannot breathe
    Without you
    Cannot walk
    Without you
    There is no ending of this life
    Let me out
    My head is gone
    It flies with you
    Although it's dark
    Although it's cold
• 12. Today
  • And today
    I will kill myself
    And today
    My heart will stop running
    And today
    I will leave the world behind me
    And today
    I will lose you forever
    And today, yeah
    Oh today, yeah
    Oh, today the world is mine
    Mother hold me
    Hold me tight
    I will leave you