我這裡，天氣晴

這裡不是2009年的日本，也沒有在宿醉清晨的溫暖熱湯，在春暖花開的四月來臨前，我有個35小時的假期。
花了10個鐘頭的睡眠，再用戶外的慢跑揭開倒數的一天。

天氣是晴朗，晴朗到讓我身上那些黑色的負面細胞感到不知所措。

一次又一次的，這個世界總是令我產生一種再不可能更壞的絕望感想。
但驚異的只是，每當金色的陽光鋪在身上，便足以令我又一次的活了回來。

很多時候，難過的是遙遠的親愛的每一個。
當想說的話，再一次的變成了日記裡的自問自答。
將珍貴的回憶放在距離里拉扯似乎是一件冒險的事情，但偏偏我是如此自私的在自由的迷思裡執著。

飛翔是辛苦的，辛苦的一個人的飛翔，我們都是誰也帶不上誰的前進著。

親愛的親愛，於是我能與你們分享的東西就更加微不足道了。
但無論如何的還是任性的希望自己能被誰放在某一個能夠被想起來的位置，對於人類不可靠的記憶來說，這幾乎可以是奢求了。

"傅於庭這三個字，對你們而言，究竟是怎樣的一種存在呢？"
只是偶爾還是會忍不住的如此在心裡猜測著。

當天空又一次的明亮起來。

只願這道重啟我生命的晨光，能夠同時在你們的心上閃耀著。

1972年的The Carpenters唱著I Won't Last A Day Without You，即便是2010年依舊是滿心歡喜的聽著哼著，它收錄在一張名為A Song for You的album，太甜蜜。

Day after day, I must face a world of strangers
Where I don't belong, I'm not that strong
It's nice to know that there's someone I can turn to
Who will always care, you're always there

When there's no gettin' over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you

So many times when the city seems to be
Without a friendly face, a lonely place
It's nice to know that you'll be there if I need you
And you'll always smile, it's all worthwhile

When there's no gettin' over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you

Touch me and I end up singing
Trouble seems to up and disappear
You touch me with the love you're bringing
I can't really lose when you're near
When you're near, my love

If all my friends have forgotten half their promises They're not unkind, just
hard to find
One look at you and I know
That I Could learn to live without the rest
I've found the best

When there's no gettin' over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you

-I Won't Last A Day Without You from 1972A Song for You by The Carpenters